Just Caitlin.

evaluations.

SO it’s that time of year….employee performance review time. My boss asked me to fill out the evaluation sheet and turn it in to her. She will fill out the same sheet and we will review together.

I have to rate myself on job knowledge, organizing ability, initiative, judgment, adaptability, dealings with people, attitude, reliability, and resourcefulness.  As I am sitting in my boss’s office, cracking jokes about how awesome I am, I got a little freaked out. It took me back to a conversation I recently had with one of my best friends. I don’t remember the exact topic, but I remember saying to Anne-Marie “I watch people very closely and I am very critical of them,” and she interrupted and said “but Caitlin, you are just as critical, if not more, of yourself. She is right. So exactly right.

As I began the daunting task of evaluating my job performance, I found it easier to pick out the things I am not good at, rather than the things I am amazing at. Why am I so critical? Is it all in my head? Did someone give me a complex at some point in my life? What is the meaning of all of this?

I wish I had the answers, but I don’t. I am interested to see how my boss evaluates me. She is fair and just and is someone I look up to on many levels. I’m not worried, well not too much.

Wish me luck.

so here’s my 30 by 30….

My 27th birthday is in a week…..yikes!!!!! I thought it was appropriate to finish creating this list:

1. Move to Colorado
2. Grad School- in progress!
3. See Van Morrison in concert
4. Italy
5. Lose Weight- in progress!
6. Maintain it.
7. Fall in love.
8. Get out of Debt!
9. Go scuba diving
10. Make a piece of art.
11. Complete a 5k
12. Lasik Eye Surgery
13. Usher in concert
14. Napa Valley with a Limo
15. Skydiving
16. Hawaii- This summer!
17. New York
18. Ride an elephant
19. Learn the books of the bible…in order.
20. Parasailing
21. Find joy in all things.
22. Get better at golf
23. Have a party with LOTS of balloons
24. Visit Hollywood Blvd.
25. Visit the Redwoods.
26. Ride in a hot air balloon
27. Help deliver a baby.
28. Hike to somewhere beautiful
29. Forgive- Anytime I need to…
30. Grow in my faith.- On going!

pray

I don’t know who all reads this, but I believe in the power of prayer, so please, pray.

Here’s the story:

My uncle retired from Intel, awhile ago, and decided to have a full body checkup before his insurance ran out. Good thing because they found that he had Renal Cancer and a few other not as concerning issues. 

So he had a biopsy and the results came back that he DIDN’T have any cancer. A miracle! (We thought). He still was going to have to have surgery to remove the tumors, however it was as urgent at this point. 

He had the surgery yesterday and they had to remove the whole entire kidney because it was indeed cancer. 

Now we are waiting (the wait is about 5 days or so) for the results to see how bad it is, if it has spread, and what the next step is.

This is all so unusual and unexpected, especially for him and his physical condition. 

So please, pray as often as it pops into your head and get your people to pray as well. 

Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful day!

joy

Joy. Mentioned 165 times in the bible.

  a deep feeling or condition of happiness or contentment
something causing such a feeling; a source of happiness

 Today in Sunday school we learned about Joyfulness.

• Joylessness is a sin.
• JOY- Jesus. Others. You.
• Have joy in times at all times, no matter the circumstance.

 Isn’t it funny how the Lord speaks to you when you aren’t even expecting it? I kind of like his style. I mean, I feel like my life in recent months has been a little chaotic and unmanageable. I mostly feel this way because I, by nature, am a control freak. I’m not afraid to admit. I’ve been so worried and concerned with useless ‘things’ that I have absolutely no control over.Why do we stress about the things we can’t control? And why do we doubt God through it all? Why can’t we just be still and feel joy, even when the rain is pouring down?

I could go on to list situation after situation which would create a pretty big pity party for myself, but why? Instead, I’ll list things of Joy.

• Joy in a 103.9 body temperature? Sure, my mom picked me up and took me to the doctor. The wait wasn’t long and the meds kicked in fast. Boom, temperature dropped and joy was present.
• Joy in this inspired blogging moment!
• Joy in the beautiful, sunshiny, low wind day!
• Joy in Ray LaMontagne playing softly in the background.
• Joy in standing up to a mean person.
• Joy in being ME.
• Joy in finding new random blogs to read.
• Joy in being alone.
• Joy in absolutely everything, rain or shine.

Scatter joy, people. 

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I am kind of excited about life right now! Lots going my way! Cheers!